October 14th

Day 14: Original October

(Day 44: Simply September, Day 75: Accountable August, Day 106: Jenn in July, Day 136: Journey Continued June, Day 167: Made it May, Day 197: Appreciation April, Day 228: Mending March, Day 256: Fitness February, Day 287: No Junk Food January)

I’ve had a difficult time lately clearing my mind and focusing on what I’d like to write about.  This journey has brought so many great things into my life; I feel empowered by the fact that I have made so many positive changes, but I’m left wanting.  I’m wanting and needed changes that I personally have no control over outside of saying yes or saying no.  It’s left me standing here… waiting on someone else’s decision in order to make my own move.  It really has succeeded to suck the energy out of life lately.  I know I should just stay focused on my own goals, the ones I can control, but I can’t… and there for my own goals are being compromised.

I’m not afraid of life, to let the good and the bad happen; to find that silver lining in the gray rain clouds.  I know everything will eventually fall into place, to be exactly what it is meant to be.  It’s just that I’m tired… The life changes have lead me to open up my heart, body, mind and soul and it hurts so much when others take advantage of the goodness you offer.  “There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.” (John 15:13 NLT)  I do this, with all of my being.  No, I will not stop… I know even now I am learning something valuable from this, even if it hurts.

We all just march on; travelling, hoping, dreaming, praying.  Keeping the faith.

Original October’s premise was to start drawing and painting, which I have, I just have nothing finished yet to share.  I’ve realized though Original October is also a good time to explore the originality of myself and each person I know in my life.  We are all 1:1 like that commercial says and each of us has unique and special gifts to offer the world, if only we are not afraid to embrace them.  Likewise, embrace each other too.  Life is filled with so many distractions and opportunities to be caught up in the nonsense; we forget to be there for others.  And I most definitely know this is an area I need to work on! 

So I’ll carry on this month, trying to be understating and give time to the areas of life that I cannot control.  Likewise, to put my heart and focus back into the parts of life I do have the ability to make decisions on.  As always, I thank you all for the support, advice and comments as I’ve been sharing this journey over this year.  It has meant the world to me so share each experience, emotion and accomplishment!

September 15th

Day 15: Simply September

(Day 46: Accountable August, Day 78: Jenn in July, Day 107: Journey Continued June, Day 138: Made it May, Day 168: Appreciation April, Day 199: Mending March, Day 227: Fitness February, Day 258: No Junk Food January)

 “Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness.  It took me years to understand that this, too, was a gift.”

That is one of my many favorite quotes.  It takes an idea that is so sad and desolate sounding and adds a completely positive and revolutionary idea to it.  There is much and many who may have succeeded to offer up some sort of ‘box of darkness’ to our lives.  The important part is what we do with this box.  It is indeed a gift, albeit a potentially dangerous one, which can offer you the opportunity of a life time… but it’s up to you to choose.  In my opinion you can A. carry the box of dark sadness around with you or B. find a way to use it as the inspiration to overcome what fears or dismays the darkness itself contains.

I picked option B.  It hasn’t always been easy… there have been moment where I’ve found myself back pedaling, but all in all I’d have to thank this year’s journey for finally giving me the chance to annihilate the darkness from the remaining corners of the box!  It’s a liberating feeling to know that you are letting your true inner light shine thought! 

Since Simply September is all about just being me; the ‘journey me’ I have become along the way- I thought this was an important idea to share.  I couldn’t have made all the changes to my life without this someone’s gift of darkness, and oddly- for what it’s worth, I thank them for it!  Sounds crazy, but I’m sure some of you may understand. 

As always a big thank you to all those who are boxes of light in my life!  Much gratitude for always shining so brightly!

September 9th

Day 8: Simply September

(Day 39: Accountable August, Day 70: Jenn in July, Day 100: Journey Continued June, Day 131: Made it May, Day 161: Appreciation April, Day 192: Mending March, Day 220: Fitness February, Day 251: No Junk Food January)

So to those who follow, I apologize for my lack of writing during Accountable August. Something happened last month… if felt more like Apathetic August. There is good news that came out of the unfortunate month of August though- and that is the renewed drive, the reminder of where I’ve been and how far I’ve come, and the lesson that things in life don’t always go as YOU want them to. So it’s very much a ‘pull up your socks’ moment; time to move on and let go of the anxieties and uncertainties.

Hence the name for September was born, ‘simply’. For this month I have set myself no huge goals, no crazy ploys… for the Simply September I am to be just me. To have the faith in myself each day to make the right choices, to build on the inner confidences I’ve developed, to learn from my failures rather than be downtrodden by them, etc. I know there is the inner will power to do and be so much more; I’ve proof of that happening this year so far. It is important that one letdown never be a reason not to try again!

Don’t you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! 1 Corinthians 9:24. The prize is not literal; it’s not some gold medal standing on the highest place on the podium. The material gold medal is worthless compared to the amount of inner worth this journey has taught me to seek. Rather, I see the prize as a ‘centered me’, a confidante being physically, spiritually and emotionally. Someone that can take on all that life gives, that finds happiness in the world they surround themselves with.

Examine defeats, failures, and missed opportunities. Explore the positive changes needed. Extract the joy, subtract the pain. Expand the mind. Endeavor daily.

Side note, eight weeks now and I’ve managed to stay away from soda! Woo hoo! Don’t even miss it, which is great!

Thank you all! The support though out this year has been amazing and continues to inspire me to complete this year long journey!

July 25th

Day 25: Jenn in July

(Day 55: Journey Continued June, Day 86: Made it May, Day 116: Appreciation April, Day 147: Mending March, Day 175: Fitness February, Day 206: No Junk Food January)

Twenty days later… I’ve had one soda.  Completely by accident!  A diet ginger ale decided to jump into my vodka last Friday.  Ooops. 

But in other news- weight loss still holds firm, haven’t lost or gained any this past month.  I have changed up my exercise and am working hard to stick with in the perimeters of healthy eating.  I know it’s just the first huge plateau I’ve hit along this journey.  Always reminding myself that now more than ever it is important to stay focused and on track!  And no matter what (outside of gaining it all back, lol) loosing fifty plus pounds in less than eight months is fantastic in my book!

The staying focused part is key … I’ve found my mind drifting lately.  All good thoughts and wonders, but I don’t want my minds idle wanderings to take me off track.  Hence, if I’m reviewing the same issues over and over perhaps it’s time to bring them to the fore front!  I summed up the contemplations as an early midlife crisis, hahaha!  Gave me a good giggle!  I guess with personal change and growth it can only lead to seeking bigger and better for all areas of life.  The problem comes with feeling ‘stuck’.  Though I know I’m not really stuck, more mentally mired down.  I need to give thoughts on financial, work and relationship situations considerable attention.  Mostly I know that my own mind is the one stopping me from achieving what I need [want].  If weight loss has taught me only one thing it would be your personal mindset, will power and faith to obtain a goal can make you (or break you).  You have to want it more than anything you’ve ever wanted in the world.  Only then do you find ways to move mountains and ford rivers.

That being said- it brings me back around to faith.  When I was finally able to let go of control and stop asking for what I wanted… that’s when things started happening.  It’s not that I didn’t make my own choices… God wasn’t sending me a delivery guy with egg white omelets every evening, lol.  I asked for the fortitude and will to make the best choices.  Temptations as always were around every corner.  The ‘devil’ was on his side saying “Hey it’s not delivery, it’s DiGiorno!”  It was my very own test of faith- in myself and in the power of allowing God in…  Now I can apply that lesson to the situations listed above that I’m considering.  Financially- do I really need to buy new nail polish or movie?  Work related- what tools do I need to do to help myself succeed?  Relationships- pray, continue to have faith and continue to build strong foundations with those around me who are an important part of my life.

I have given considerable thought to what August’s goals will be.  It seemed only right with the questions that won’t leave me alone that August be dubbed Accountable August.  Rules of engagement include saving approximately thirty percent of every dollar earned, reviewing and listing work skills and having faith.  With the work related thoughts I’d like to also take time to consider what it is I’d really like to pursue…  little scary and shocking to realize you’re thirty years old and your absolutely clueless as to what that may be, lol!

As always, forever grateful and thankful for all of you who have shared in on this journey with me!   

July 16th

Day 16: Jenn in July

(Day 46: Journey Continued June, Day 77: Made it May, Day 107: Appreciation April, Day 138: Mending March, Day 166: Fitness February, Day 197: No Junk Food January)

Day eleven of no soda… not so bad in all honesty! 

I have been conflicted with what to write about today.  Over this past half year I’ve touched on so many topics from diet, to exercise, to mental and spiritual well-being…  I’ve noted that over time as I go back and re-read my old posts it’s not so much that my opinion has changed, but it definitely has been broadened.  With each success and triumph I’ve learnt something new and likewise with every failure or mistake.  It’s all an ever evolving journey with the hope that I become a more centered being.

So here are a few viewpoints of where I’m at today.

SUCCESS:  That’s a tricky one!  Just when you reach a goal and feel you have success you realize there is so much more you can do!  There for the success of one’s life is infinite… and I REALLY like that thought!  Even in death the success of your life has the potential to live on in the world; gives you an amazing sense of immortality.  Mayhap I am a bit idealistic with my views, I think outside the box… But I feel most of us want to leave some sort of everlasting mark on this world and this could be the way we do it; through our success.

FAILURE:  Unlike success, it seems like such a finite word.  That once we have failed that’s it!  It’s over!  But I see failures and mistakes as a lesson.  What can we take away from the experience?  What can we do to succeed next time?  How can we take the negative and turn it in to a positive?  If a failure isn’t addressed automatically by a million ‘what if’ and ‘how to’ questions then the failure will consume us… and only when it consumes and we give up do we really fail.  I try not to let my fears of being told ‘NO’, ‘you can’t’ or the millions of other negative comments keep me from pursuing my goals.  I use it as an opportunity to explore that section of your life; and often remind myself that what is meant to be will be (though a certain amount of energy, work and determination are required).

POSITIVITY/NEGATIVITY:  the yin and yang, light and dark, happy and sad of the world.  We can’t go around in life complaining about everything and everyone and expect to be happy and content with ourselves.  Most often I have to remind myself that everyone has their struggles, chances are we don’t know what they even are.  What a better way to live giving encouragement, advice and well wishes to others during their time of struggle (the positivity) than bad talking, mocking or IGNORING (the negative).  Be the friend to others you wish to have in this world.

I do my best to positively reach out to the world and the people in it every day.  I remind myself that there is nothing expected from the world or others in return for what I offer.  Through my deeds and successes I open a door inside to a happy life.  As always, thank you… forever grateful.

July 9th

Day 9: Jenn in July 

(Day 39: Journey Continued June, Day 70: Made it May, Day 100: Appreciation April, Day 131: Mending March, Day 159: Fitness February, Day 190: No Junk Food January)

Here we go!!  Another new month with new goals and objectives!  Jenn in July is going to encompass many of the things I’ve wanted to do or have needed to do, but have put off because I’m scared, lazy, etc.  Of course as with every new month all the previous objectives from the months before still apply!  With it being month seven now, things are a bit crazy!!  So many wonderful ideas that help keep me on track and motivated.

The first HUGE goal for July that I have been sloughing off is giving up soda completely!  I was a big cheater- still drinking zero calorie sodas.  Enough is enough!  I know that even zero calorie sodas are not all the great for you, so soda is out… for the rest of the year!!  Thanks to those who made the suggestions- the V8 V-fusion is pretty tasty with a nice natural energy kick!  And La Croix and Schweppes flavored seltzer water gives you the soda fizz I am missing!  So if I’m a little cranky and caffeine deprived over the next few days while I detox, I apologize.

One other I can discuss now was getting back on my strict diet which includes logging everything I eat or drink.  It’s a pain in the butt sometimes to note every item that goes into your mouth, but it seriously opens your eyes to your eating habits (good and bad).  For the past four days (had a little bit of a late start with July- figured I’d enjoy Independence Day) everything eaten/drank has been accounted for.  I know using this method helped me to successfully lose my first 50 pounds! I am shooting for 20 more pounds on top of that first 50… and since today was weigh in day I can proudly say already down the first 2 pounds out of the 20!  Proof to me that diet is one of the most important keys to my weight loss success.  (And a reminder- starting weight was 207 pounds on January 1^st, 2014… after 50 pounds lost I was at 157 pounds around May 2014.  Around 155-153 currently… the 140s are so CLOSE!!)

There are lots of other little things, but I will blog about them after they are done.  No counting my chickens before the eggs hatch, lol

Moving forward one day at a time… Keeping my heart and mind positive…  Always grateful and forever thankful for all the support, motivation and help over this past year so far!  Looking forward to the new and exciting things ahead in July!!  Stay tuned!

June 30th

Day 30: Journey Continued June 

(Day 61: Made it May, Day 91: Appreciation April, Day 122: Mending March, Day 150: Fitness February, Day 181: No Junk Food January)

Between tomorrow and the day after- I am half through the year of my journey experiment!  I’m pretty excited that for the most part, for over 180 DAYS I have done my best to stay true to myself and my goals.  With July looming over my head just a few hours away, I’m still undecided on what the goal should be.  I’ve polled Facebook as usual and the best… but the WORST, is Jogging July.  Nothing better than 90 degree days jogging in humidity you can cut with a knife.  But on the flip side, what a goal to achieve that would be!!  We’ll see haha! 

Most of my goals and achievements have been set to force myself to go beyond what I thought my limits were.  I’ve noticed, especially as I’ve gotten older, that life can be a little mundane and repetitive.  We get up, go to work, eat, relax, sleep… rinse, wash, and repeat.  We crave something more, but we don’t know what it is we want.  My own personal experience has led me to feel it is CHANGE!  Doesn’t have to be a big change- these little, silly goals are that exact change my life was in need of.  I can’t share enough the overall transformation of myself physically, emotionally, spiritually and mentally. 

Sadly, the fear of failure often holds us back.  I know it sure held me back!  The problem there is that most of our dreams and desires go undiscovered because of our fears…  woah!  Trust me; I haven’t 100% of the time stuck to my diet plan and goals.  Does that mean I’ve failed?  NO!  The fact that I realize my error and correct my ways keeps me on the track I need to be on to succeed.  In my opinion, I will only fail if I give up my passions, internalize my feelings, and/or/but not limited to lose the faith, trust, and confidence I have built up with in myself over these past six months.  So, eat the ice cream!  …and then do some sit ups! ;-)  All of life in a special balance.

So tomorrow is a new month and another day.  181 days taken day by day, 184 more days to go!  As always I’m grateful to share this journey with you all!  Thank you for the motivation to continue and the chance to inspire!

June 16th

Day 16: Journey Continued June

(Day 47: Made it May, Day 77: Appreciation April, Day 108: Mending March, Day 136: Fitness February, Day 167: No Junk Food January) 

So today I decided to go back and upload all my old Facebook posts of my journey so far this year to a blog.  I noticed that as time went on my posts became more open- which makes me so proud because that’s the point of this entire thing! 

The journey has been a little up and down the past few days.  I feel my mind and heart being torn in several different directions.  I have yet another huge personal life changing decision hanging over my head.  It’s a little stressful!  Last year I would have been prone to eat my feelings, lol!  Now though I am doing my best to meditate, pray, and write in order to keep my center (with only small doses of ice cream).  I find it so important to have an outlet when you are stressed.  Some people work out more, talk with friends, or go to a special spot (like a place in the MetroParks) that gives them a sense of calm.  Whatever yours may be- find it, use it, never lose it!

Every day is just one step in front of the other, a slow and steady pace.  As long as you are focused on what may come and not was has gone, you are headed in the right direction.  Not everyone may understand what it is you are doing or why you even need to do it- but that’s OK!!  Keep your determination and destination charted!  You are doing this for YOU!

Paraphrasing a quote I once read “Someone once gave me a box full of darkness.  It took me a long time to realize that this too was a gift.”  Life has given us all boxes full of darkness- hard times and difficult situations that test our inner most will power to survive in this world.  The always optimistic me strives to see even the most trying parts of life as something potentially positive.  History (life happenings) is bound to repeat itself if we do not take the opportunity of learning from it.  Let the greatest lessons and hardships from your past be your inspiration and guide for your future. 

Find your center.  Find your courage.  Find your happy.  Live your life to the fullest.  Forever grateful and thankful!

June 9th

Journey Continued June: Day 9

(No Junk Food January: Day 160, Fitness February: Day 129, Mending March: Day 101, Appreciation April: Day 70 and Made it May: Day 40)

“If it is important to you, you will find a way. If not you will find an excuse.” That just about sums everything up in a nut shell. As I mentioned before- I’d tried and failed several times before this go around. I would always... come up with some reason why I couldn’t do it any more… when it was really more along the lines that I just didn’t want to do it anymore. I’d blame my migraines, the weather, work and life stresses- pretty much telling myself whatever I needed to make it sound ‘ok’ in my mind to give up. It’s sad how we trick ourselves to comfort our disappointment.

Lately I’ve taken some quiet time to meditate and search my inner self. Everything I have and hold in high regard in my life I have WORKED for. How could a physical transformation be any different? And by no means is it just a physical transformation- it’s the dedication to the cause and honesty to yourself which first requires a mental makeover. A spiritual guide assists some as well.

So if you fell off the wagon let go of the excuses. Don’t be afraid to try as many times as it takes to find the success you are looking for. This journey has taught me one of the most valuable and important messages I may ever learn in my life… that happiness is not created, given, or found. It comes from a place within that only you know how to access.

As always, grateful to share this journey with you all. Thank you!!

June 2nd

Journey Continued June: Day 2
(No Junk Food January: Day 153, Fitness February: Day 122, Mending March: Day 94, Appreciation April: Day 63 and Made it May: Day 33)

This post is a day late and a dollar short- kinda got caught up in work, cleaning and laundry yesterday (the typical awesome Sunday routine). I decided June should be called the Journey Continued June because well… it just makes sense...! LOL! After taking time off in Made it May to revel in my accomplishments of fifty pounds lost, expanding my mind, faith and friendships, etc. it seemed appropriate to call it thus. What does it entail? Exactly what it says! Getting back to the roots of where this journey started at 153 days ago. Nix out all the junk food (no more excuses! I picked up some bad habits in May with all the birthday parties and vacation, lol), get back on a good a regular exercise routine and keep an open heart and mind grateful for all life has to offer!

It’s not always easy to start up again after stopping. So far I keep reminding myself how rewarding and wonderful I felt and the great sense of accomplishment seeing the pounds drop off and the pants get smaller! I found this perfect ‘stay motivated’ pic while scrolling pinterest one night… This Susan has it pretty spot on! For those who were following since the new year, you all know I succeeded at #1 ‘Talk About It!’ Some of you may wish I’d shut up about it too… haha But seriously- talking to others friends and family and posting about it on Facebook or Twitter really do hold you accountable! You get excited responses from others and this boosts your motivation. So never be afraid to share your journey! #2 ‘Rome wasn’t built in a day’… looking at pictures over time and comparing them to the now help me see the slow transformation. Makes me smile It may be slow, but it is steady! Everything takes time, so don’t rush it! Diet and exercise the correct and healthy way, this will give you the best and probably more lasting results! #3 ‘Write it down or post it up!’ I think using an app on my phone would be fitting for this one; tracking my food intake, my exercise and weight. It even has this annoying reminder for exercising… I feel guilty if I set it on snooze! #4 ‘Compete with yourself’… NOW THERE’S A TOUGH ONE!! To be honest with you all, I had tried and failed probably a good five times before this current (and more successful) attempt. What made this time different? I did it for me. I stopped thinking about how I looked; it became more about how I felt. In this day in age where media sets these uber anorexic standards it’s difficult to not listen or see. Ignore it the best you can and focus on yourself! Last, #5 ‘Join a Group’. Well this one doesn’t apply to me so much… I refuse to pay for a gym membership because I’m cheap, haha! In all honesty though- what’s the point of having one when you could go for a jog in the park and see the beauty of nature? Anyone interested in joining me on said walk/jog let me know, we’ll be our own little gang.

So, it’s back on track with a vengeance!! The weight loss goal has been decreased another ten pounds… which I haven’t lost any of, lol…. But, ROME WASN’T BUILT IN A DAY! See what I did there?! Praying as the weeks go on I will have great things to share. Always here if you have any questions and forever grateful to be able to share this with everyone! Thank you!!

May 5th

Day 125: Made it May!

Back in January on New Year’s Day when I first decided to set these monthly goals for myself, I never thought what the end results would be. Now here I sit, looking and feeling better than I did for birthdays from age 24 to 29 lol! It feels wonderful to know I have succeeded!

Initially I was going to stop sharing my journey here on Facebook after today, but I think I am g...oing to try and see out the year. The rest of May I’m going to take some time to reflect and celebrate life. June through December though, looking for ideas to go beyond the limits of myself. If you have any thoughts, let me know

As a friend on here said to me at the start of this journey, “Veni, vidi, vici.” I CAME to the realization I wanted to make some important changes in my life. I SAW over time the changes impacting myself and the environment around me. I CONQUERED my goals!

What are you waiting for?

So- a break till June! Thank you all for your inspiring words and motivation!

April 30th

Day 30: Appreciation April

{Day 61: Mending March}

[Day 89: Fitness February]

(Day 120: No Junk Food January)

So the daily Bible devotion verse is kind of perfect for the thoughts I’d like to share today… “for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.” Philippians 2:13

There are several things that I have noticed while on this journey that are undeni...ably linked together. My own personal journey began a few years ago, renewing my faith with God which began to instill a hope and passion inside of me. This hope and passion introduced the perseverance needed to begin to make the changes this year to my body, mind, and soul. The changing of my body, mind and soul has impacted my social life, my financial status, and my general life goals and dreams.

I know it’s not the same for everyone, but if you can put positivity into your life at least ninety percent of the time, that positivity starts coming back to you. We want so much and we will go out of our way (i.e. putting ourselves in debt, weakening friendships, ignoring what is right…) just to get what we want. Maybe it’s time to sit back a bit, stop trying to drive our own lives at this manic make haste pace, and let God have a chance at the wheel. I’ve realized lately the greatest things have come to me when I simply ask for what He feels I need. It’s revolutionary! You are no longer disappointed by what you don’t have and you find yourself even more grateful for what you do have. Count your blessings, not your desires.

I would have never thought in December of last year that I’d be sitting here writing this, feeling just about the best I ever have… Fifty plus pounds lighter and so many blessings in my life! My journey and faith have given me the strength I very much needed to begin my third decade of life. If I wouldn’t have ‘let go’ these much needed changes would have never taken place. Yes it took a lot of work, yes it took a long time, yes it wasn’t always easy, but I have faith every day and that faith has brought me more than I could have ever bought or asked for!

I foresee more positive changes ahead and I pray daily for direction on them. As always, I am thankful and grateful to be able to share this journey with all of you!

April 15th

Day 15: Appreciation April

{Day 46: Mending March}

[Day 74: Fitness February]

(Day 105: No Junk Food January)

It was a weigh in day this morning and I was extremely glad with the results! After a struggle for well over two weeks I’m finally back on the weight loss track! More to the point, I weighed in at 159.6 which puts me only 2.6 pounds shy of 50 pounds lost!! It was a great morning!

So many great adventures are right around the corner too! Twenty days till my 30th birthday- which was one of the spurring factors to the weight loss journey. And only twenty-five days until GETTYSBURG and the CASHTOWN INN!! Last September I came home from Gettysburg a changed person, and this May I will be returning having even more changes taken place. There is something about the hallowed ground there…

I am so honored and proud to know so many that have started journeys of their own! Stick with it! Change is so difficult, but you know what is more difficult? Regret. Wondering what would have been if you’d started sooner, stuck with it, worked harder, etc. Trust me, there have been many a days that I’ve just wanted to sit down to a beautiful greasy eight corner pepperoni Jet’s pizza and dig in… but you have to live outside of the NOW. What do I mean by that? The NOW is our instant gratification. We so easily give up our deepest desires for our future to have a bit of happy NOW. Don’t let living in the NOW destroy the dreams you have for your tomorrows.

Start small and work up. Let each day happen. Let each opportunity and each challenge come forward. Meet them head on, shoulders high, back straight! Never give up. Work hard. Love yourself and respect your body. Be your own champion!

Thank you!!

April 10th

Day 10: Appreciation April
{Day 41: Mending March}

[Day 69: Fitness February]

(Day 100 No Junk Food January)

Woah, that’s getting to be a long title, haha! DAY ONE HUNDRED!! YES!! Lol cannot contain my excitement! I’m so happy and so thankful for so many things… for once I’m at a loss for words. One hundred days of healthier eating (ya, there were a few slip ups in there); sixty-nine da...ys of doing at least a twenty minute workout five days a week; forty-one days of deep thinking and rediscovery of life and self; ten days of appreciation for all that I have, all that I’ve gained over this time and all that I have to give to others. How does it feel… AMAZING!

Just taking the time to dedicate a small part of your life to something greater is a wonderful reward. As you start seeing the impact it has on those around you, you feel a deeper motivation to continue your dedicated route. An amazing faith and confidence builds up inside you. Suddenly, no objective in life is unobtainable! No, it doesn’t happen overnight and No, you can’t just sit on the couch at wait for it. It takes work and perseverance everyday- but that’s the funny thing about change, it won’t happen unless you make the effort.

As mentioned earlier, in honor of Appreciation April I’m going through all my clothes this weekend. Whatever is in good shape will be donated. Next up is going to be a fun Pay it Forward idea I had… I’ll post it once I have it all together. Also during this month I’m not watching T.V. on the weekdays. It sucks, especially when you see that ‘record’ light on the DVR, haha! It has been great though to take some quite time with Kora and read lots and lots of books! Appreciate the little things It’s still early in the month- so I’m keeping my heart and mind open to any appreciation opportunity.

The end of this ‘journey’ is only twenty-five days away now! I can’t believe how the time has flown by! Looking at it in the positive light though, it’s still just the beginning of the journey! I have started the path to that something wonderful!

As always, thank you! It is with a grateful heart that I have been able to share my journey on here… and it’s kept me on track!

March 31st

Day 31: Mending March
[Day 59: Fitness February]

(Day 90: No Junk Food January)

Welcome to the end of Mending March. It has been another awesome month and I’m so proud of my dedication! With only 35 days till I’m 30 and 40 days till Cashtown Inn, I’m ready to take on the next year of life and my trip as the ‘new’ me!

An end of Mending March recap… 45 pounds lost, putting me at 5 pounds away ...from the super goal of 50 pounds lost! Initially I was just shooting for 30 pounds, but when I hit that, I figured let’s keep going! After 50 pounds, who knows?! Definitely need to work on toning my body and the warmer weather, which I’m praying is coming, will help with that. I’ve dropped from a size 16 to a size 10! Though most consider that a plus size still, I feel awesome and happy with my accomplishments over the last three months! Maybe April can see me out of the double digits and into a size 8 I’m quickly running out of pants to wear that fit, lol!

I never thought that making a physical change would have such an impact on my personality, emotions, etc. I feel more confident and positive and I’m not afraid of ‘change’ anymore! It may take a lot of hard work, focus, energy and time but change for the better leads to such wonderful things! The feeling that I may have inspired is beyond awesome!

The last three months I have been focusing a lot on myself. April, though the goals of January, February and March still apply, needs to have me extend beyond myself and start more services to others. ‘Appreciation April’ will be filled with a more ‘pay it forward’ life style change. Helping others in need and taking time for family and friends are two of the main goals. I’m sure God and time will reveal more opportunities to go outside of my normal life routine to fulfill this goal. Ask and you shall receive, right?! Haha!

Excited for the wonderful things to come in April! This journey has been so amazing! I thank you all again for your support and kind words! Without the great encouragement here on Facebook I don’t know if I would have been able to stick to my goals!

March 21st

Day 21: Mending March
[Day 49: Fitness February]
(Day 80: No Junk Food January)

Welcome day 80 of a healthier life! If you’ve been wondering what I’m doing to obtain my goals this is a good one to read! I’ve had several questions about my diet and exercise plan that have lead me to successfully lose weight. To date I have lost over forty pounds, with a starting ...weight of 207 and a current weight of 165.6. My BMI has gone down from 33.41 categorized as obese to 26.63 which though still puts me in the overweight category- leaves me only eleven pounds away from a NORMAL BMI for my 5’ 6” and 29 year old self! I’ve lost several inches around my waist dropping almost four pant sizes now.

How did I do it?

We live in an age of smart phones and unlimited data- use it wisely, haha! Download a BMI calculator to see where you stand. There are some that will also guide you as to how to find out what your body fat percentage is. It really sets things into perspective when you see the outcome! Also apps such as Noom or My Fitness Pal are really helpful! You can track everything you eat, every exercise you do as well as set weight loss goals and keep a diary of the pounds you shed! Be mindful when setting weight loss goals. It’s great to have an ultimate goal in mind, but I would set my goal in the app at ten pound increments. It made my chances of success to reach ten pounds lost much greater, and with each ten pounds lost I’d reset my goal for another ten. I’ve done a goal rest FIVE times now, which means I’m on my way to loosing fifty pounds!!

Diet?

I was never, NEVER the healthiest eater!! Being single and having no one else to really cook for, I’d often go through a fast food drive through at least five days a week. My work schedule also had me eating over 2,500 calories worth of greasy fatty fast food sometimes as late as 10 or 11 o’clock at night! Cutting out all the fast food, all the junk food and all the ‘extras’ like sugar, butter and unnecessary fat is a huge step in the right direction. AND I MEAN ALL OF FAST FOOD AND JUNK FOOD!! I haven’t had fast food in 80 days now, nor any chips, Cheetos, Doritos, Cheeze-its! I’m an awfully picky eater so finding healthy foods that I liked was a bit difficult. Egg whites, whole grain brown rice, bread and pasta, jello, freeze dried fruits, fruits, vegetables, grilled meats, oatmeal and broth make up my typical diet today. Remember simple substitutions!! Switch your vegetable/canola oils for extra virgin olive oil. Use Pink Himalayan salt over regular table salt (more minerals!). Use pepper and spices to season over condiments. Change your salad dressings to vinegars (balsamic is awesome!). DON’T BE AFRAID TO LOOK AT THE NUTRITION FACT ON THE BACK OF THE PACKAGE! Try to eat at regular times and before 8 o’clock at night. Don’t eat just because food is around, eat when your body tells you it’s hungry! If possible, eat slowly so that your brain has time to tell you that you’re full! USE suggested serving sizes- it’s difficult at first because we tend to over eat, but portion control is key! Have ‘treats’ every now and then.

Exercise?

I never thought there was enough time in the day. I was constantly running around from work, to family and friend evens to sleep… Always exhausted, never enough hours to complete everything I wanted to. TRUST ME- as an adamant ‘I don’t want to work out’ person, exercise will not only help you lose weight it will improve your overall quality of life! You will sleep better and have more stamina. But wait, that time problem again… Chances are you take at LEAST 20 minutes a day to watch television. Are you sitting on the couch? GET UP!!! Grab yourself some weights or cans of beans and move around! Do sit ups, push-ups, lunges, crunches and work out your arms. Even walk in place or hold some yoga poses. I use this 20-30 minute TV work out on weekdays and on weekends I use my Jillian Michaels shred DVD (she will kick your ass the first few times). It may not be much, but it works for me. I refuse at this time to buy a gym membership. If my butt can’t get off the couch at home and work out than chances are I’m not going to drive to a gym somewhere and pretend I know how to use the machines, haha!

It’s all pretty simple when it boils down; I’m applying what we all earned in health class as kids. Eat healthy, portion control and exercise. I wish I could say it was just some magic pill, or win the lotto for a quick and easy lypo… but I didn’t put all the weight on in one day and it sure won’t all come off overnight. The best part is that I’m still in awe that working on changing my physical appearance has done some much good for my spiritual and inner self. Do it for you and Do it TODAY! The saddest regret in life is the wondering of what could have been. Don’t let that wonder be another part of your day. It first starts off as your desire, which leads to others being inspired- be in inspiration!

The MOST rewarding of this whole journey will be happening in fifty days! Last September when I visited Gettysburg my overweight self felt awkward and uncomfortable. When I planned my trip for this coming May I promised myself I would be healthier before I returned. Oh, and that other little thing happening in May which is me turning 30!! LOL!

Thank you all! Each of you has continued to inspire, motivate and excite me to continue this journey! You’ve kept me honest with myself too! I have forty-five more days left that I will be sharing this journey with you! Here’s to knocking off those last eleven pounds before my finial post!

March 16th

Day 16: Mending March

[Day 44: Fitness February]

(Day 75: No Junk Food January)

Happy (day before) St. Patrick's Day

75 days of healthy eating. The Arby's sign is no longer a beacon in the night - quite honestly I'm afraid to eat it! I've noticed that with healthy eating, if you eat the wrong thing you're going to know about it in twenty minutes or so, haha!

My confidence is over the moon... and beyond! I'm not worried or afraid about changes any more, because you just never know what they might bring! I feel more centered and comfortable around others. I'm making my dreams come true.

Still holing strong at 40 to 42 pounds lost since January 1st! About 10 to 12 more to go. And then I think I'm going to, of course, continue the healthy eating but focus harder on toning my body. The treck in Gettysburg should help with that, haha!

With March half way through I must say I'm thoroughly enjoying my meditations and time spent with God. I'm really going to dig deep inside for these last few weeks of March- I want no corner or dark doorway left undiscovered.

As always, I thank you for your support while I travel on this journey. Never be afraid to start your own! Take it one day at a time.

March 11th

Day 11: Mending March

[Day 39: Fitness February]

(Day 70: No Junk Food January)

★Happy 311 Day Edition★

Are you ready!? Welcome day 70 of healthy lifestyle changes! ...drum roll... to date 38 pounds lost! I swear these last few pounds are going to be a challenge! Definitely not falling off fast like they did in the beginning. But that's o.k. each one gives me the sense that I'm winning the ...war, Not just a small battle

Meditation sessions and walks with God have had me exploring so many aspects of my life these last few days. I'm really glad I am taking the time to center myself and rediscover what it is I am looking for and need.

These last few days I've been thinking about friendships and my friendship to others. Before I wasn't always happy with the physical looking me, which lead to not always being the most positive human being. Now I'm grateful that I have stepped back and recognized. Feeling better about myself as well as feeling better internally/health wise gives me the opportunity to be a better friend. And I don't want to miss out on that for anything - because I know some really awesome people.

I have seen a few friends be inspired and being their own journeys - I am so proud of you! Keep your hearts and minds open, stay positive! Remember that one day makes a life time so make that day great!

Still thankful to be sharing my journey with you all! As 311 says "nothing in life is above being honest"- and posting on here kept me on track, motivated, inspired and honest I have decided I will continue to share my journey until my birthday which will ironically make the 125th day of healthy change! I'm so looking forward to writing that post- will be amazing to know I made it!

Thank you!

" We could say it’s just how it is /
and how it always will be /
and believe things will never change /
as far as we can see /
it’s a disaster and it doesn’t matter /
well I disagree /
a ray of hope remains if we take the reins we’ll arrive eventually..."
~The Call, 311

March 1st

Day 1: Mending March

[Day 29: Fitness February]

(Day 60: No Junk Food January)

Sixty days! Sixty days of eating healthy and exercising! The last few weeks with adding in buying a car have been a bit stressful, but I held true to my healthy changes!

Mending March-ing will be (in addition to no junk food January and fitness February) a month of walks when the weather allows, taking time ...to mediate. So many wonderful changes happened so fast! I want to keep going with what I have done, but take a little time to reflect on everything.

This journey continues to surprise me. I am better understanding myself - what my long term goals are, what I'm looking for in life. My perseverance to continue this is one of the positive changes!

Thankful to you all!

February 24th

Day 24: Fitness February

(Day 55: No Junk Food January)

Might have splurged on a piece of Jets pizza and a whoopie pie (red velvet with a cream cheese filling) last night. It was delicious. I feel a little guilty

Work outs need to be escalated, but the past 72 hours have been H.C. flare filled and that makes it a little difficult (since your head feels like a volcano).

I have added in another healthy choice life style change. So far in four days, going very well!

Twenty pounds more. This is going to be the long haul... but as I say, don't wait for the tomorrows to be your today. Start now! Make the changes for a better you. Trust in your journey and have faith in God.

Thank you!

February 19th

Day 19: Fitness February

(Day 50: No Junk Food January)

And GOAL! 30 lbs LOST! Woo hoo!

It has been an interesting journey - I've learned a lot about myself over these last 50 days. Knowing that I am capable to make certain changes in my life is bringing me to the question 'what's next?'. Lots of prayers too, bringing me spiritually closer to God. (With Him, all things possible)

Pulling out clothing I haven't worn in four to five years, trying them on and having them fit is such a huge reward!

In the beginning I wasn't sure if I was doing things 'right'. I'm not on a fad diet, weight watchers or any other type of meal plan. I just looked at the nutrition value on packaging. Seriously, second grade health class came into play. The food pyramid! Something about that pyramid has been flipped in today's life style and eating habits. Cutting out refined sugar and fats while eating more fruits and vegetables and whole grains.

Somehow along this journey I've stopped eating meat- lol. Mostly because the few way to eat healthy meats is to grill them, and I live in Ohio and it's February! Burr!

I'm doing this for me, and I'm feeling great!

Redirecting my weight loss goal to loose another 10 lbs. And after that another 10 lbs more. Think I can do this by May? Lol! That last 20 lbs would medically put me in the 'normal' category! (Though it's me- I'm hardly normal haha)

Thank you all!  The journey continues!

February 14th

Day 14: Fitness February

(Day 45: No Junk Food January)

Happy "Heart" Edition!

Yesterday was a day of revelations. Seeing the life style changes making themself evident to my body was a very exciting moment! Though more than looks- the way I FEEL makes each day well worth it!

Exercising is going well, I think next week I'm going to vamp it up some more! My sleeping schedule even seems a bit better over the last few days.

Still hovering a bit away from the second goal of 30 lbs lost. Trying not to let it frustrate me- Before May though I'd be thoroughly pleased with another 10-15 lbs as well as toning legs, arms and stomach!

Thank you all again! Sorry if I'm driving anyone crazy with these posts - they give me the sense that I'm more accountable for my actions since I'm sharing my journey with you all

Happy Valentine's Day- eat some chocolate for me!

February 4th

Day 4: Fitness February

(Day 35: No Junk Food January)

I am writing this while laying on the floor, lol. First 25 min (wamp waaah, 5 mins short) work out of Fitness February is now behind me.

Kora may not be allowed in the room next time. She thought it was soo funny and kept nipping my toes, giving kisses or otherwise being cute and distracting!

No promises, but I may just shoot to work out five times a week all month. It feels great!! Though that may be amended tomorrow, Haha!

Thanks!

January 31st

Day 31: No Junk Food January

Well... eleven plus hours to go but so far I've made it! It's been an interesting journey. No chips, ice cream, cheeto's, pretzels, fast food, fatty food or grease. I still mourn the loss of butter and sugar, but freeze dried fruits are a great sweet and crunchy substitute for regular sugar.

Arby's has survived my strike. Wishing them well with their reve...nue as we head into February and the standoff continues!

31 days... 18 lbs. Nice! Wish I would have started sooner. One whole pant size down and probably 3 inches around the waist line.

As the the Junk Food free diet continues, I'm thoroughly excited to see what the results may bring by adding in Fitness February. Week 1: 3x 30 min Week 2: 4x 30 min & Weeks 3 & 4: 5x 30 min workouts.

Praying I can keep the dedication going!

Thank you all!

January 29th

Week 4: No Junk Food January

29 days. Made it so far. I'm thinking Arby's for dinner tomorrow... j/k!

Wish I could be reporting three more, but so far 17 lbs is the total loss. Over half way to goal! Hoping to meet goal by the end of February so that I can maybe double the take. We'll see...

Right now though I really need some sun and a warmer wind, or maybe a chocolate bar and some caffeine! Lacking a bit of motivation as Fitness February begins in a few days. Honestly though, when it's -0° outside who isn't lacking the drive!

2 days of No Junk Food January left to go which carries into Fitness February. How many months will this go on for? Who knows...

Thank you!

January 22nd

Week 3: No Junk Food January

The weigh in this past Monday held wonderful results. 15 lbs lost, which puts me at the half way mark for one of my "Thirty before 30" goals. Feels amazing, and after a chat with my sister Gina- I feel thoroughly inspired that I'm on a good and positive track!

The Arby's red-orange cowboy hat sign is a glowing beacon in the night when I travel home from work. ...I avoid it like a lighthouse warding off a ship! You shall not dash me on your rocks of greasy goodness! Lol!

9 days left in January - and of course Junk Food January continues in February. February was to be Fast Food Free February, but since I've already maintained a fast food free diet for 22 days, I'm trying to think of a different goal for February. Any thoughts?

As always - thank you friends! Posting on here and getting positive feed back has truly helped to keep me on track!

January 20th

Day 20: No Junk Food January

Holding strong despite some cravings!  I was doing some thinking and I have saved about $30 to $40 a WEEK by not buying fast food for lunch or dinner!  Also have saved another $20 or so a WEEK by not buying soda at work, while out shopping or at gas stations.  Thats a whopping $50+ saved each week!!  AMAZING!!  My regular grocery shopping bill per a week is about the same amount as before, but I'm buying smarter and healthier food!

Still standing at about 13 lbs lost in 20 days.  I'll take that as a WIN!

In 11 days- February will be here.  Who will join me in a fast food free February?  Thank how much money you could save!

Thank you all!

January 14th

2 Weeks: No Junk Food January

Holy cow- I've survived two weeks without a single fry, chip or [regular] soda! Woo hoo! If you know me and my usual diet you understand that this is huge!

Here's a crazy observation I noted yesterday, my shoes are fitting better. Random I know, but with each little physical change I feel empowered to continue!

Two weeks and three more days in January. I can do it!

Sincerely want to thank everyone that have liked my posts about this Journey. Each like is a hug from you friends and an encouragement to keep going!

January 5th

Day 5: No Junk Food January

Stepping on the scale and seeing the numbers at 209 pounds shortly after Christmas made me realize it is time to make some personal changes.  Each month of this new year I am going to challenge myself.  January is No Junk Food January!  Fairly self explanatory- No chips, snacks, fast food or anything else that I believe is a quick and easy but unnecessary food item.

The Arby's by my house may be closing due to the financial loss of my patronage. J/k!

Seriously though, I feel less 'bloated' in just only five short days! Not much more energy but still detoxing from my usual diet of chips, pretzels, mozzarella sticks, soda, French fries, candy, chocolate and my otherwise awful diet of crap.

No- this is not a new years resolution. This is part of my Thirty before 30. And mostly because when I return to Gettysburg in May I want to be healthier. Last time my guide was a good twenty feet in front of me while I was waddling behind him. Lol!

So, we'll see how his Journey of Me goes!  Hoping and praying for the best, I need this change!